Fervently Prayer

 (Disclaimer: I wrote this last week... but I'm just getting around to actually posting it) 

Praying and keeping in constant communication with Jesus is vital. Lately I've been burden with the unknown within my personal life, career, and where I'm going to live, etc. I don't have the answers or know what to do but I know Jesus does and I know as long as I stay within His will I'll be fine.

We talk about "Jesus taking the wheel" or handing and surrendering everything over to Him... but the reality of that is hard. I know, personally, I want to be in control, in the "know" and have a solution and a plan available ready to implement. But when I find myself asking Jesus to work things out on my behave, I not only have to pray and ask for His help.... I have to ask for help surrendering also. I have to say Lord..help me give it totally over to you and help my unbelief and any doubt I might have, help me give it over to you 100%. 

When we pray we expect answers. And as great as it would be to have Jesus Himself come down and in an audible voice say " KP you need to do x,y,z" He doesn't always do that. Last week (two weeks ago) in a moment of confusion and distress I broke down in my car in literal tears (and I HATE tears) and literally cried out that after weeks I wasn't hearing His voice and I didn't know where to go or what do. Ultimately, my desire is to be in the will of God because I know there is no safer and better place then His will. I sincerely believe He spoke to me within 24 hrs as "loud" as he could about certain aspects of my life that were weighing heavily upon my heart and hurting my mind. Ever thought so much it hurt to think?.... No?... well... that was me.

I realize I need to surrender ever facet of my live over to Jesus  not just in moments of frustration, crisis and uncertainty. How I should respond, jobs, relationships, money, professional endeavors, if I should make a purchase... all should have God's input and blessings. Because when you allow Him the full power to take over...life is so much simpler and makes so much more sense. 

My prayers might not always be answered the way I want or desire, but it will be better for me then my "grand plans". Like I said earlier... I just want to be in the will of God because I know I'll be safe there, He has my best interest at heart and wants the absolute best for me. Why do I need to fight, stress and worry, when I have someone to fight and handle my issues and problems for me?


Live. Love. Smile. Enjoy.

Miranda Lambert - Over You

Since this song came out, I've always liked the chorus. I watched the music video a couple of weeks ago...and I thought it was ok...although the video was not what I expect it to be about. Last week on the way home, in the mist of singing my little country heart out... this song...well the chorus really, reminded me of my dad and how I've felt at times...

But you went away
How dare you?
I miss you
They say I’ll be OK
But I’m not going to ever get over you

Live. Love. Smile. Enjoy.